Breakup!

Unag-una sa lahat, napaka sakit mahiwalayan, napaka sakit talaga. Yong iniwan ka lang bigla, diba masakit yun. Ako ay may isang kaibigan nagdadalamhati dahil sa sakit na kanyang nararamdamn. Hindi niya mawari ang kanyang sarili, hindi niya maikubli ang kanyang matinding nararamdamn sa kanyang irog. Sa tagal na nilang nagkalayo at hindi na naguusap, hindi na niya namalayan, siya ay nalilipasan na ng panahon. Nagkimkim ng galit at ang sarili ay nababalisa. Sa tindi ng kanyang inabot pilit niya pang pinagtatanggol ang kanyang irog na matagal na siyang kinalimutan at pinalitan.

Sa tindi ng kanyang pag-ibig tila ba, nalimutan na niya na siya ay isang dalgaita at may marami pang magagawa sa buhay. Sa tindi ng kanyang dinaranas, gusto niya itong makausap, tila ba ang panahon ay hindi sumasang-ayon sa kanila. Pilit niyang tinatanggi na mahal pa niya ang kanyang sinintang irog na matagal na siyang inilibing at kinalimutan. Sa araw ng kanilang pag uusap, hindi niya mawari ang kanyang pakiramdam, siya ay umaasa na tila naghahangad na sila ay magkausap.

Pero ang panahon na ang dumikta na hindi pa pepwede. Sa mga araw na parang bang siya ay nababalisa, natutulala at naluluha. Pinipilit niya paring maging malakas na walang kapares. Dumaan ang mga buwang tila bang naikubli na niya ang kanyang tunay na nararamdaman, at ang galit niya ay nanatili sa kanyang puso. 

Ngunit sa tindi ng kanyang pagmamahal, tila ba isang tao ang bumaba at nagsabi ng mga katagang "Gusto ko kayong mag-usap, hindi ko gusto sa mga araw na darating. Kung kayo ay magkita sa isang lugar, hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman, kung niisa sa inyu o kayong dalawa ay hindi magsasalita. At ihahambing ang isa't-isa sa mga bagay na hindi naman kaaya-aya." Tila ba siya ay nahimasmasan sa pagdating nga kanyang kaibigan. Pero siya ay may itinanim na pagdadalawang-isip sa mga magaganap. At kanyang kaibigan ay para bang nababaliw na sa kaiisip, kung mangyari ang mga iniisip niya. Ayaw ng kaibigan niyang mapahiya sa dalawa.

Kaya ang Dios ang nagbibigay sa akin ng pag-gabay, at sila ay aking idinadalangin sa May Kapal.

~CJAP

My BFForever!!

 Yung kaibigan mong ganito, yung kaibigan mong mukhang tanga. Pero love na love mo, I can't find anything like her, a close friend of mine, that is like my sister in the other mother. 

Yung ganito ang gingawa niya habang nag saskype. The eff, I really missed my lovely bff ever, siya yung nakakaalam sa lahat ng stress ko, depression ko, at mga secrets ko.

Miss you lat, Sana magkita na tayo ulit, parang ilang taon ng hindi nagkita, last Januray pa nga yung last, hahaha nakakatuwa, namimiss ko yung shoppe 24 moment natin, hahaha ilang bottles yun huii!!??? hahahaha Miss you!!! Muwaaahhh!!!

Kita naman tayo sa December, ahahahaha, miss you so much!

Special Wedding!! Love lots Auntie and Uncle Ling.

The day was filled with tears of joy and gladness. That the tying of the knot will be witnessed by the crowd. The feeling of excitement is a fulfillment of their dreams, that the both sides have already committed their life for good and the bad. No matter how others say something about them, they will become a couple that stands from those different circumstances, trials, and temptations. 

This photo was taken at Phela Grande, General Santos City

The family of the bride and groom have gathered to their most important event that happens only once. The two hearts becoming one, exchanging vows and promises. The overflowing happiness and love filled the garden. The running tears of  happiness filled the eyes of the families who witnessed the special day of combining hearts.

The preparation of the bride and groom it was a marvelous preparation. The groom's men, and the bride's maids were handsomely and beautifully dressed as what the couple instructed.

There are PrenUp photos that were taken inside Green Leaf Hotel, General Santos City. I can sense the mixed emotions which my uncle [the groom] feels, he's feeling nervous at the same he feels excited. May someday if I get married I can feel the same too. 

Seeing the bride, I really make a  peek inside the reserved room for the bride. I saw my aunt [to be] she was definitely gorgeous and happy. She cared a lot, she cared for us, and to my Nanay [the groom's mother]. The hospitality she showed was tremendously amazing, her family too was one of the best family I've ever met. On the very day that we arrived, they welcomed us with a warm smiles and we are pleased with their personality. At first I was like, they have different auras they are really different.

Ate Jerill's mom is, I can't say anything, they are a happy family and super warm. 

My mom's story when he saw my tatay [my grandfather's brother] walks down the aisle, she saw my late grandfather she cried too much. Because my grandfather's wish is to see my uncle's wedding, but my grandfather always insisted that maybe he can't attend anymore, because he's tired, and want to rest. And year before my uncle's special day, my grandfather died. And we are happy that we saw him on that wedding.

This was fun wedding full of memories that is indeed worth to be keep and to be cherish. I want to write everything, but it's enough. Those memories will kept and be remembered till my wedding comes in the near future.

PS we love tatay even though you did not witnessed uncle's wedding, but we're happy and we'll know we will meet on the great wedding which Jesus prepared for us. Love you Tay!!

Wedding is a serious thing!!

It is our dream to become a bride and a groom, it is our dream to have a marvelous wedding. Becoming a couple is not that simple, there are circumstances that you need to be patient as a husband, need more sacrifices to satisfy the needs of your family. You need to be the strong foundation for your family, if you are a strong foundation for your family, your family can stand any storms that may came in your way.

Maybe there are moments that you argue and that argument may result to possible break up. As a man of honor and as a man who gains respect and responsibility, do not let the the foundation of your family ruin and turned into ashes. Settle everything, and settle it with a word and patience. You cannot cast away your family in an instant, you are being a coward who is afraid to face any circumstances. Let the foundation stand still, because you promised in front of the altar or in front of the judge that you will love each other "Till death do us part".

Before the day ends!! GOOD NIGHT!!!

"Tomorrow is another day, leave thy burdens which you carried yesterday. Each day is precious, just think for another possibility."

~CJAP [LDCU]

Good Night!! Philippines!!!

Don't be a social climber!

Photo: koyjuan_fotografie
Entitled: I Am Different

People around you tortured you, mocked you, and he worst they kill you with their words. We may feel different from them, in society their are classes, the poor, the middle, the rich, and the super rich. The problem  is us, we want to fit in, we want to be good in their eyes. We want to be at their level, but "NO" you can't. This is the reason why people mocked you, because of your attitude that is not pleasing in the glaring eyes of the society. 

Tagalog na to ha, hirap na mag english. Ang problema kasi, tayo, kahit nga ako di ko maiwang lumevel sa mga friends kong mayayaman. Kasi ang reason is ayaw mong mapahiya, we are discontented with the things we have kasi. We want what they have, kahit wala kanang mabili, dapat may ganun ka pra level kayo. Kahit man lang sa bagay kalaevel tayo. 

May kasabihan nga "You can't please everybody."

Totoo yan, sa bawat mata na nakatingin sayo, di maiwasan ang criticism. Nagising na ako sa realidad ehh, tinigilan ko ang feeling marangya naawa na ako sa magulang ko. Isipin niyo nalang, baka someday, you will reach the peak and be one of them. Try lang, baka naman, walang impossible sa mga taong nagsisikap, hindi yong nakaupo ka lang, hingi ka ng hingi di kana naawa sa mga magulang mo!  Wag kang feeling baka ano pa magawa mo jan na masama!!!

"Some of the disease are curable, the only thing that is not is being a SOCIAL CLIMBER!"

~Writer: CJAP

[Liceo de Cagayan University]

Try to Explore, Don't be a NO ONE!

In my youthful journey. There are times that I need to satisfy myself. I need to feel the youthful feeling being young wild and free. Every moment that I get tired, I need to seat and relax my feet from walking from the dreary way of sacrifices and less happiness journey of life. I need to feel the breeze that carries life, I need to feel that it's still me, not an alien but a total me. This photo was taken somewhere within the city's vicinity. It was fun walking a 5 kilometers road just to reach the gate. And from the gate we co'z I'm with my college and closest friend at that time. We need to walk another 6 kilometers, but it was fun and relaxing. I can feel the bliss of happiness that runs through my veins. I can feel that I don't need to settle on a simple things that I have, a simple place just like my room to roam around and enjoy. There are lots of time that I need to get out of my box and walk and enjoy every single moment at my young age.

There are no limitations when it comes to happiness, the only one who put that limitations is me. Because I am afraid to explore new things, we are afraid to be compared and to be scold. By spreading thy angelic wings of blissful joy, and a new memories that you will be cherished when you get old. Having a pinch of joy in your heart and mind will be cherished forever.

You need to jump and explore under those great waves of trials. Just to satisfy your needs, and to fill the spaces that has been emptied for too long. You need to fill those empty spaces in yourself, just to know what kind of person you are. You need to internalized what is lacking within you. Other people may not see those spaces, but as the owner of yourself, you know when to fill, and what to put. You need to finish the race of and shall not wait any payment. The moment you reach the goal, sure I, you, we will be satisfied and say we are in the perfect route. Reach the goal while still young, enjoy your life while we are still young. Not on vices, but let's enjoy and let us make travels as our great vices. And don't let hatred come and fill those emptiness. You need to seat on a cliff, a breathe the fresh air of possibility and love and let God also be with your plans in life. Don't you let yourself erase God in your life. Because He will always help. This is me, my travel and I enjoy! God bless folks!



~Writer: Christler June A. Panoy

Friendship Goals!!!!

 Friends are important for a man's heart. They are the one where you can rely on those things that are meant to be kept and cherished. You can keep your secrets with them. Having friends is like having a gold as your heirloom. Friends can't be forgotten and a true friend will not abandon you, even in your darkest days.

Some friends, you considered it as if you are siblings. The exchange of thoughts while having a serious talk brings back happy memories. As you grow old, you see yourself as a full of dreams and compassion and a open mind. You can do anything you want when you are with them, you can show your silly character when you are with them. Nothing beats a true friendship that last forever. Though people nowadays doesn't believe in forever, but in us we believe that our friendship has this forever. 

Many people bothered about your personality, and many people judged your friends. As far as they could see, the people who judged you and your friends doesn't want to see any positive, they are just looking the way they look. the way they speak, the way they act, and the way they show respect. Those people who has this negative thoughts. Just don't bother them. They don't give you any food, they are just putting your name on their grave.

At the end of the day, you must be thankful that you have these so called friends of yours. They've said "Tell me who your friends are, and I will tell you who you are.", then judge me now with my friends who has this disability of being friendly, lovely and educated. They may act so weird in front of you, but you can't judge a man/woman by just looking at their physical appearance.

I admit that my friend has this so called vices, but I am happy, it stands as a key opener and it's telling me. What is good and the right, and I love the way they are, because they are my precious friends. I LOVE YOU FRIENDS!!

~Author: Christler June A. Panoy

To my friends:

Sibyl Ann Marie H. Vedra
Julie M. Beleta
Anna Katrina C. Obsioma
Aubrey Balabat
Deuturonomy Galia
(And More)

FooD!!!!

Food is life!

Palagi nlang nagluluto, at kumakain, foods pa more....

Life is Precious

 Life can be compared to a flower. Life is expensive and valuable, there are times we are just wasting our life with those stupid things. There are times, we forget how valuable our life is, in every second you waste, the precious petal of yours fall and wither. There are times also we forgot to water ourselves, with experience, understanding,and faith. The time you shriveled, you forgot who you are, in every petals that is important to you will disappear in no time.

 

No matter how we try, if deep within you is feeling tired. Life was just a dream that was full of beautiful petals. The petals of you which makes you a better person, and good man. Being a flower doesn't mean that every piece of you is beautiful. Judging the physical appearance of flower doesn't define the true capability, ability of being you. You may not that valuable flower, but you are being you. You may have the thorns which protects from you from the criticism from the society. People may not find you beautiful, but someday they will realize that the flower they've stomped and torn into pieces is more useful than the pricey one. 

There are lots of differences, racial discrimination may occur in our life. We must not forget that maybe it's not your time. You may bloom in your perfect time, and everyone wants to own you. There ups and down, dry seasons, but don't forget to water yourself with lessons, experiences, and faith. Always stay on the fermented land of peace, harmony, and love. Don't dream to be bird, dream on something like a flower. who always stay on the ground of humbleness and pride.

~Author: Christler June Agum Panoy

 [Liceo de Cagayan University]

The unseen things of this world. {LET'S FIGHT CLIMATE CHANGE}

There are yet unseen things in this world. We humans were tortured by the new machineries, technologies that is only foot away from us and we grasp the feeling of satisfaction. But with the power of technology we forgot to spread the lowly wings that was hidden all those years. We forgot how beauty this world is. Change is constant in this world, serenity is artificial, peace is a metaphor, and love is just a gamble.

God has given us the ability to see what is beauty and gorgeous. Not on a physical human state, He let us see the beauty of the world. He showed us His masterpiece, but we the lowly creatures who gamble themselves for the better. Tortured and destroyed the mother nature.

In an economic basis, the satisfaction of man is always changing. At first we are satisfied, but the lust of wanting it is on the verge of nothingness. You may foreseen the continuous destruction of the world. How can we attain a world that is serenity is not artificial, where peace is not a metaphor, and a world where love is not gamble. Many actions have been given, passed and the youth are shouting for PREVENT CLIMATE CHANGE. But as the economic statement, the humans satisfaction is changing every moment, minute by minute, and until the possibility of nothingness arrives. No one can attain that preventions, if the people itself needs something. Scarcity of everything, we don't want our families dies in agony and pain. If the people can't raise the level of discipline, famine, poverty, and death will surely follow. There are times that us people is need of lots and lots of discipline. Let us fight for CLIMATE CHANGE. If you want change in this world, the discipline and change starts in you. Don't let all these things vanished in just a blink of an eye, don't let your children suffer from all those plagues. Let them see the beauty of this world, let us not depend on those artificial technologies that bought chaos and destruction of this world. Let you children see that this world is worth living for, for their future, and for the next generation. Let's stop abusing our mother nature, let's do our part as citizen of different countries. Go for nature, Not for torture. Let us end CLIMATE CHANGE.

~Author: Christler June A. Panoy

[Liceo de Cagayan University]

Sarap Tuwing Rainy Season

 Sarap ng noodles (lalo na kung ramen) during rainy seasons. Sarap kasi sa feeling ng naiinitan ang katawan pero di yung ibang init ha. Lalo na kung ikaw ay broken hearted, kakahiwalay, na busted sa isang relasyon. Aww, ang sarap lang naman kumain, pilit mong iniiwasan ang pagkain, pero ako pag na stress pagkain lang ang nagpapaiba ng mood ko. 

Sabi nga nila may dalawang klase ng taong stress.

Una ang taong stress, na hindi kumakian, mag mok-mok lang ang kayang gawin. Ako naman ay isang stress eater. Kain lang ng kain hanggang mawala na yung stress. Well probably hindi pa naman talaga nag sisink in yung stress, nut at least na relieve ako from that damn stress.

Sino ba ganito? Taas paa, kain tayo ng  Ramen!!! Totoong ramen yan, yung instant ramen, tapos bumili ako ng salted seaweeds (nori). Sarap lang, ano ba to nonesense na ang post na ito.. HAHAHAHAHAHAH HAAPPPPYYYY SUNDAY!!!!

The Death of My Lovely Puppy: Cookie

I love my pets, this little cuttttttttttiiiiiiieeeeee she is my favorite pup. She knows how to pose, and she knows when to smile. She is a half Japanese Spitz/Shih tzu(tama ba?), cuddly, and fluffy. I really like dogs specially the big ones, This photo taken a few weeks after her birth. Pero hindi rin nagtagal, ayun na nga, nakalimutan naming ipa vaccine si little girl, she suffered from a severe stomach pain (my diagnosis lang, coz her abdomen area turned into blue.).  Pag gising nalang namin kinabukasan, yun na nga UMIYAK na ko, kasi di na gumagalaw. 

Advice lang, pag one month na ang pet niyo (specially aso) pa vaccine niyo na pang 1st dose lang...... para hindi na kayo mamatayan.

Food comes in, Fat builds up!!!

 No One (Alicia Keys *Tawa*) beats me with my experimentation when it comes to food making.

        Walang magawa sa kusina, ayun may bread na tira sa ref. (GARDENIA Ha: Para sosyal! *tawa*). Alam naman siguro ng karamihan kng pano gumawa nito. Hahaha! First time ko yatang gawin to sa bahay, ParaMed yung course ko pero heart ko nasa FOOD!!! 

       What you need when it comes to food is your creativity. Food making is an art, parang ewan lang yan kanina. Ayan nag try na kaunting art, kahit ako walang ka art-art. Yan lang ang breakfast ko, so gutom na ang tiyan, kain nalang. KAIN TAYO!! (made from the heart). Guys try niyo lang mag luto gamit butter, para hindi masyadong oily yung food, para healthy rin, gamit ko jan ay vegetable oil (nakaumay nga lang pag nag absorb siya ng oil). Pero mas masarap ang lasa kapag butter ang ginamit mo. Kain, Kain!!!!! Pak ganun! Gutom na si ako. 

Ingredients: (wag na itanong, alam mo na PIZZA ROLL kumbaga!)

Hintay-hintay, Ayun Namatay!

• Yung ikaw, ako na nga lang. Yung kakahiwalay mo lang sa isang relasyon, tapos ganito, lock on, lock off ka sa phone, kasi nag aassume ka pa nag tetext siya sa'yo. Asuuming noh? Naramdamn ko rinyan, with my former nakaka bwesit na ex. (confess ko lang: She had something, something with another guy, and it makes my heart and mind EXPLODE IN ANGER!!). Ganun, diba kahit alam na kung gaano  na kalaki ang kanyang kasalanan, hindi mo parin magawang mag hintay samga message niya, (BAKA NAMAN). Tapos sa pgka TANGA ko, ako pa yung nag text una, tapos *SEEN ZONED*. hahaha, alam ko pag na SZ ka ng taong minsan minahal mo, ANG TSEKET, TSEKET! Super, hipocrito nalang man siguro ang hindi makakaramdam ng ganitong feelings. Pero girls, kung mahal kayo ng lalake, wag kayong pakipot, pakipot pa kayo! Pero maiba ako, kilalanin niyo muna isa\t-isa baka mabilog at malulong ka sa masamang bisyong iyan. Pero girl pakipot din pag may time, di yung titihaya kanalng, nakakita ka lang ng sasakyan, alamin mo baka RENTADO yan. Wag pag-antayin ng matagal yung lalake, baka kasi mamatay, malanta na yung nararamdamn niya para iyo. WAG TANGA GUYS, DAMI PANG BABAE.

Alak na STRESS RELIEVER, BUT DEATH MAKER!

Yung tipong umiinom ka ng alak, tIce, at iba pang nakakalasing. It's normal naman siguro lalo na sa mga lalake, at lalo na yung mga BROKEN HEARTED (kasi naman wlang forever). *tawa*... Then heto, tapos pag na lasing na, hindi na malaman gagawin, may iiyak, tatawa, pero common eh yung nagahahmon ng away. Nalimutan mo nga kahit sandali ang iyong iniisip, pero di ba tayo nagiisip na kung ang epekto ng alcohol ay nawala na sa katwan, ayan nanamn yung problema. Tapos iinum kana naman, tapos pag nagwala, inom, nawala, inom,. nawala, inom nanaman. Tapos ayun nagising na realidad.

Eto lang ha, sa totoo lang pasalamat ka dahil sa pag inum mo ng alak, at least kahit sandali (lakas maka Jen Mercado) pag-ibig mo sana. Ay este, kahit sandali nalimutan na may probelam ka, alam mo ang dapat mong gawin ngiti,  (wag yung ikaw lang magisa, Buang kana nun.) Bumangon ka, di yung naka higa kalang dahil sa kalsingan, tapos wala kang ginawa para solve yung problem mo. Hihingi ka pa ng mga advices, tapos di ka makikinig. Hindi naman siguro baliw ang nag advice sayo no? Kaya kinig-kinig din ng kaunti. Wag yung paiiral mo Yang PRIDE mo, di yan ikapuputi ng buhay. Advice: WAG UMINOM NG NAKAKAMATAY, BAKA DI PROBLEMA MA TAPOS MO, KUNDI YUNG BUHAY MO, WAG TANGA TOL!

AKO TO EEHHH!!

 (ctto) Ganito akon palagin eehh, mas maganda kasi ang feeling pag madilim! AT PEACE!

Bittersweet

Ang love pede mong icompare sa ilang bitter but sweet cocoa cake. (Waffle ang nasa pic). Kasi sa una matamis ang pagibig, kasi nagkakakilala pa kayo (thoroughly) parang dissection, kinikilala niyo pa ang mga sarili niyo. Tapos after ng getting to know stage (hindi kasi sapat yung getting to know with each other before kayo nagka on, kasi ngaun paspasan na.). Sa stage ng mag on, while getting to know with each other stage. Doon mo na malalaman ang tunay na kulay ng iyong bf/gf. (REALTALK: Sa mga babae, tandaan niyo walang masamang lalake sa umpisa. Kaya wag kayo ano uii!)Ung iba nga umaabot ng years, minsan nga doon nagkakalabasan ng baho pag ikinasal na. Kaya tayo na iibig (Wala namang FOREVER) isip-isip din, baka sa dulo o sa haba-haba ng prosisyon niyo, sa sementeryo ka dadatnan. Kung ayaw mong pumait buhay mo, wag kang magmadali, at WAG KANG TANGA!

Alamin Sino ka, Wag Tatanga-tanga!

(ctto) I don't know who you are.

Pero eto ha, ung reason kasi ng mga nagkakahiwalay na relatioship ay yung, kulang sa trust (hindi condom ha), understanding, at yung time. Tapos magkakahiwalay na kayo ng bf/gf mo, tapos reason mo ay, "I NEED TO FIND MYSELF" Wag tanga, kasi ang pagiging kompletong tao ay hindi lang yung na eexplain sa science, kasi ang pagiging tunay na tao ay yung kilala mo kung sino ka ba talaga, kilalanin mo ang sarili mo. Matakoy ka kung makasalubong mo yun at naka smile pa sa hrapan mo! Di ba amazing!

ELEKSYON 2016

Isang point of view ko lang.

        Sa pag boto niyo sa 2016 elections, bilang isang mamayan, botante ng Republika ng Pilipinas. Isaisip po natin ang mga kandidato na iboboto natin no! Wag kayo magpadala sa mga bayad na ibibigay, hindi ka nman siguro bayaran, o isang kasangkapan na kayang bilhin ng isang mayamang tao. Kung gusto niyo ng pagbabago, dun kayo bumoto sa may prinsipyo at dangal. May mga poltiko na ngang ipangrandakan na ang mga nagawa para makuha ang sympatiya ng mga tao, meron ding isa ipinagmamalaki ang mga naiambag sa bayan, pero lumabas ang video an ayun! SAPUL! (TIKOM ANG BIBIG). Meron namang isa na ang banat ay ang social media, na sa mga nakaraang mga interviews ay bukam bibig na siya ay hindi naniniwala na may Dios. May isa namang naka blue, kapit bisig kuno ang pinaglalaban, 10 taon na daw sa bansa, nasaktan kasi hindi daw isya isang Pilipino. May isa namang tatakbo, patayan ang hanap. (I am a supporter of Duterte, and actually it is better to kill those criminals than to remain in silence.). Kaya kayo, tayo na mga botante, isipin natin ang kapakanan ng bawat isa, wag magpadala sa TUWID NA DAAN, NOGNOG, SOCIAL MEDIA, KAPIT BISIG, AT BARIL. Mag-isip ng mabuti para sa ikauunlad ng bayan, at please naman. Cooperate din pag may time, kung nakaupo na ang binoto, babatikusin, ikaw na botante umupo na rin at naghintay ng pagbabago pero hindi mo naramdaman. Isipin niyo na kahit ipagsigawan nila ang pagbabago, kung mismo ang kintawan ay hindi magbabago, paano makakamtan ang pagbabago? Kaya FULL COOPERATION LANG ANG KAILANGAN!